Monday, October 19, 2009

Number have consistently been under 200 for the past week..huge deal for me. I really hope that the number keeps going down. If not, then I go on insulin. SO, not only will I keep eating healthy and exercising, but I will also try to keep positive. Honestly, I never thought that I would end up exercising again. I hate it...HATE IT. The treadmill really helps. I don't mind it too much. I just put on a dvd and walk. I always feel accomplished afterward. I'm only doing a mile at the moment, but it's still early....I have to build up my stamina.

Saturday, October 10, 2009


I went to the doctor yesterday and was finally put on medication. We're starting off with oral medication which hopefully will help bring my numbers down somewhat. If not, then next month I will have to go on injectable insulin, which is not in my plan. I only lost 3 pounds in the past 3 weeks, which the doctor was pleased with..but not siree..I want it fast. I am going to have to be more patient obviously. I am going out tomorrow and buying a treadmill. So, if anyone wants a good used treadmill in about 6 months, give me a call..haha. Isn't that the way it usually goes?

I spent last night with my son and his family. I had a blast with my grandsons. I love those boys..they are so silly.

Thursday, October 8, 2009


Sometimes life just sucks, then other times, not so much. I am not sure what phase I'm in at the moment. I have been following "all the diabetic rules"..eating healthy, staying away from carbs and even losing weight. My numbers STILL suck. I go back to the doctor tomorrow and he'll probably put me on medication, which would make me feel alot better because I am sitting here visualizing my organs falling apart as I type this. I know, a little optimism could probably go a long way... but hey, I'm entitled to feel this way. I mean, for real, if all this watching what I eat crap isn't going to help, then give me a damn cookie and shut the hell up. I'm impatient, I accept that. Whenever I would get depressed, I , like so many of my women friends would reach for chocolate. I WANT CHOCOLATE DAMNIT. Oh well, this is my life...I will learn to deal with it.